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Great Expectations

“For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.  Psalm 62:5 ESV

It was our third Valentine’s Day together…maybe our fourth.  We were young and newly married and in that season when making a big deal out of Valentine’s Day was still a big deal (at least for me).  I found a quaint little bed and breakfast that was far enough away to feel adventurous and booked our spot several weeks ahead of time.  In our young married state the pre-paid cost was nothing less than a non-refundable splurge.

The day we were supposed to go, our not yet one year old daughter started acting like not quite herself.  Not fully sick, but that clingy/whiny/I could break out in a fever any moment now way.  A fairly new mom I was hesitant to leave her.  My kind friend who had volunteered to babysit overnight was a veteran mom and assured me that they would be fine.  I walked forward looking back and got in the car comforted by the knowledge that I would only be a phone call away and could easily rush home if I needed to.

And we were off.  Check in was at 3:00 and  I had planned our time together to make the absolute most of it.  Excitedly we pulled up to the front of the beautifully decorated home.  From the car I noticed a hand written note upon the door.  It stated:

Found abandoned kittens, had to take to vet.  Be back ASAP. 

A huge letdown, somehow that had failed to make it into my expectations for the weekend.  Instead of feeling even a twinge of sympathy for said abandoned kittens and a rush of respect for the individual who found them and was kindhearted enough to take them to the vet, I only felt irritated.  My plan was interrupted.  My schedule was now off.  My expectations were not being met.  How could a business establishment with an official “check in” and “check-out” time fail to have someone to greet you when it was your time to check in?

Because we had no idea when ASAP would be, we decided to go to an early dinner and check in late.  I’d like to say that I was able to shake off the initial irritation and disappointment and that the rest of our time was wonderful but unfortunately that wasn’t the case.  Every minute we had to wait to check in felt like stolen time and money to me.    I was unable to let go of the frustration of my expectations not being met.  This irritated my husband.  Our entire evening away was tainted leaving both of our expectations unmet.

This wasn’t the first, or the last time that unmet expectations impacted my life in a negative way.  In having expectations of people, of churches, of experiences, and of LIFE,  time and time again I have found myself face to face and heart to heart with disappointment. Often, my great expectations weren’t so great after all-other times, the frailty of humanity lent to realistic unmet expectations. What’s a girl to do?

“For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.  Psalm 62:5 ESV

What the Lord has revealed to me lately is that the only safe place to put my expectations are upon Him.

I can expect that He will be faithful to His Word.

So very much is encompassed within that one sentence.

He will always be with me, never leaving or forsaking me. 

He will keep all of His promises.  He is faithful, trustworthy and true. 

His love for me never changes. 

He is the same yesterday, today and forever. 

He is always on my side, defending, protecting and leading and guiding me into all truth. 

Father, I thank you for the truth I find within your Holy Word.  Help me Lord to place my hope and expectations in you and you alone. 

Tanya Glanzman

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Safe Keeping

I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you. Psalm 119:11

My son repeated his scripture memory verse frantically over and over again.  Having forgotten until just that moment, he was attempting to commit it to memory before it was “due” in his Bible class. This behavior, obviously resulting from procrastination primed the pump of mommy wisdom within me.  As I was about to use his current anxiety an example of exactly why procrastination is a poor choice, he broke his mantra of repetition and with frustration offered “why do we even need to memorize scripture anyways…what’s the point?”  Spared from the lecture that almost was I was thankful for the teachable moment that had presented itself.

I shared with him something that had happened with his big sister just last week.  As I was driving my daughter to a sleepover I deliberately paused in casual conversation to introduce all that was floating around in my brain with “So…”  Before I could get out the next word she looked me straight in the eyes and counting off each point by sticking a digit in the air said “yes I have my toothbrush, yes I brought modest pajamas and yes, I will be good and have a good time.”  She then tilted her head forward, smiled at me with a sideways grin and raised her eyebrows; obviously feeling proud of herself for having me pegged.

I looked at her in silence for a moment feeling that she had literally taken the words right out of my mouth. I laughed at her self-assured humor in knowing what I was going to say before I said it and even her playful imitation of my mannerisms and intonation.  “How did you know that was exactly what I was going to say?!” I asked with a wide grin on my face. “Mom, I’ve been your daughter for thirteen years, that’s what you always say before I go to a sleepover.” Mission accomplished.

I have been depositing words of wisdom and truth into my daughter’s heart for thirteen years.  Now, those words live within her heart and whenever she goes to a sleepover they are there, waiting, ready to guide her.

The same is true for the words of our Father.  We deposit scripture within our heart for safe keeping.  When we encounter different situations, we are so much better off to have God’s words on that matter already within us, ready for exhortation, encouragement, wisdom and teaching either for ourselves or others.

Romans 12:2 tells us And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

This renewing of our mind comes primarily through the impartation of His word into our hearts.  When we have meditated upon, gotten revelation on and held firm to His perspective on things, so begins the process of being molded and transformed into His image.  It is when what He says is so big on the inside of us that it overrides our human way of thinking and pulls our hearts toward the divine.

A member within the body of Christ who possesses the truth of God’s word within them is well equipped to be a vessel that God can use to pour love, truth and encouragement into the lives of others.  So many times when asked to pray for someone, the situation can be so overwhelming that I find myself at a loss.  At these times I am especially thankful for that truth from scripture which stands as a sure foundation for all of God’s children that I can pray over and into the lives of others.

Thank you Lord for your word.  Let it be a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. 

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All Wrapped Up

For God’s gifts and His call are irrevocable. [He never withdraws them when once they are given, and He does not change His mind about those to whom He gives His grace or to whom He sends His call. Romans 11:29 (AMP)

Initially when I thought of what the right time to leave the house would be, 9:30 seemed like a reasonable estimation. I spent the morning planning, packing and preparing.  Lugging my baggage and my friend’s belated birthday gift to the loading area of my mommy-wagon I set them down and began to dig in my purse for my keys.  When the one hand “dig, feel and grab” method failed me I realized that my keys were not in my purse after all and I was going to have to go back into the house to find them.

Reluctantly I called my husband.  I didn’t really want to have to admit to him that I had lost my keys again, but desperate times call for desperate measures. Graciously forgoing all of the things he could have said he told me that the last place he had seen them was on the couch under the clean laundry.  Well…naturally…why hadn’t I thought to look there first?

Keys in hand I ran to the car, jumped in, and began to back down the driveway.  Realizing immediately what the dreadful noise was, I slammed on the breaks.  Instantly nauseous, I slowly and deliberately stepped back out of the car and walked around to the rear for damage assessment. Fortunately, I had not backed up with enough speed to cause my luggage to be forced beneath the vehicle. Instead, I had only pushed it down my gravel driveway causing it to get scratched and dirty.  Unfortunately, the beautifully wrapped gift that was sitting next to the luggage did not fare as well.  Grimacing as I got down on my hands and knees, the gravel digging into my flesh, I looked into the darkness of the car’s underbelly to see what had become of my friend’s previously exquisitely wrapped birthday gift.  Disappointment mingled with frustration, I proceeded to reach under and begin ripping the once white tissue paper out from the car parts it was now tangled in.  The bag that I had spent much time picking out because I wanted just the perfect one was now ripped, dirty and ruined.

Expecting the worst and holding my breath, I gingerly removed the remaining tissue paper from the bag to check on the gift within.  I was both amazed and relieved to find the special piece of framed art unscathed.  Somehow, I had managed to back over it at such an angle that although there was much damage to the beautiful wrapping, what was most important had remained intact.

No time to do anything about it, I called my friend on the way to meet her explaining what had happened.   Later, offering her a birthday gift that looked like it had been, well…. run over, we both were able to laugh together.  I was so very thankful to see that the state of the wrapping didn’t detract from the blessing of the gift at all.

God has placed gifts inside of each one of us.  Sometimes the circumstances of life can cause us to feel about as beautiful and useful as something that has been run over and has lived to tell about it.  We must remember though that despite the wrapping of ourselves, the gifts and callings of God within us remain useful for the purpose of bringing Him Glory.  We cannot become so “wrapped up” in our own weakness and shortcomings that we refrain from offering the gifts within us into the lives of others.

Father, help me to honor you with the gifts you have given me and to use them to bring You glory. 

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